To the Man who loved me most

Today is my birthday, the day you and mama brought me to life. 12.03.2024

This used to be one of my favourite days but I no longer have a reason to celebrate, because you are not here with me anymore. But for some reason, I want to post this tribute to you, to let the world know just how good you are as a father, husband, son, friend, and person. As if that will make me feel better, knowing that your greatness is not only remembered by me. Friends reminded me to still celebrate my birthday, to celebrate the life you and mama gave me, so I did. But not without the void in me.

Dedicating this love letter to you, my papa. My daddy. Hoping that you will know just how much I love you, how much we love you. That you’re gone, but never forgotten.

Dear beloved Papa,

You are like your Chinese name 光辉. You bring light (光）and warmth to everyone in your life, and you left a legacy (辉). Just as I counted down to a beautiful 2024 on 1 January, my life changed completely when you were hospitalized that very morning. I lost count of the days I cried myself to sleep, asking questions which I know have no answers. I guess you’re too good a human, and so you’re summoned to be an angel.

I’m thankful that you walked me down the aisle on my big day, witnessing the most important day of my life. But not being able to bring you to more places and get you on that dream cruise will be my lifelong regrets. Trust that I will live life the way you do, love others the way you do, and do my best for everything the way you do. I will become the daughter you can be proud of, watch me from above alright?

I know I’ll no longer be the same me from this day, not having you in my life, not spending my morning listening to your stories, not returning home with your warm voice saying ‘welcome home’. Never been this broken. But I’m grateful that we are family this lifetime, and we shall be family again the next. May we be healthy, happy, rich, and carefree the next time we meet. Just remember to love yourself more. I love you. All of us love you.

With Love,

Your one and only 宝贝女儿